Well I know this is really out of the blue, but I turned in my mission papers about a week and a half ago. This whole process has been very different from what I thought it would be, and it's actually been alot harder then I ever imagined it would be, but I know that I am doing the right thing and that's what I am counting on to get me through any doubts or fears that I have about it. Right now it's hard because I'm just waiting to see where I will get called to and I'm really not feeling much of anything to be completely honest. I'm not super stoked or super excited right now, which is weird. If you know me very well, you would know that I have always been so adamant about serving a mission and it's always been one of my biggest dreams in life. Well now that dream is turning into a reality, and I feel like instead of it being this sweet, amazing thing that I have always wanted, it feels like I am making a mature decision about it. Sometimes I wonder whether or not my somewhat lack of excitement means I am making a wrong decision, but I honestly don't feel that's the case (if you can't tell, I've been keeping all of this inside me for a while, and I need to talk myself through it. . . so enjoy this plunge into Stacie's head for a second!). I think I am just apprehensive about where I will be spending the next 18 months of my life, and once I find out when and where I'll be going, then I will be more excited about it. So that's about the jist of it. I am going to be serving a mission soon! But before that I have to go to another semester of doom up at BYU. . .
I'm really not looking forward to the schedule I have lined up for this next semester, but I have to get these classes out of the way or else I'll prolong my future graduation and the freedom that comes with no more math classes at BYU!!! It will be an amazing day of glory, and I can't wait for it! But for now, I am just going to enjoy the last week that I have at home. . . the end!